He understands...

Sometimes I feel like giving up. It seems like my best just ain't good enough. Lord, if you hear me, I'm calling You. Do You see? Do You care about what I'm going through. Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone and just like a stranger so far from home. I feel like I've done all that I can do. Please, Lord, give me strength. I'm just trying to make it through.

He knows just how much we can bear. And in times of trouble, He promised He would always be there. He is telling you, yes I understand. I am Your Lord. I see you and yes, I understand. I am the Lord. I changeth not. I won't forget, nor have I forgot. Everything works according to My plan. I am God. Trust me. I've got this whole world in My Hands.

I love it when He tells me, "Just one day. Just one more step. I'm preparing you for Myself. And when you can't hear My voice, please just trust My plan. I am your Lord. I see you. And yes, I understand..."

Deo Volente,

Step Brown

Lyfe Jennings Statistics

This is by far the best song Lyfe has put out there. In fact, I'm so moved by it, I had to post the lyrics.

25% of all men are unstable. 25% of all men can't be faithful. 30% of them don't mean what they say. 10% of the 20 remaining is gay. That leaves you a 10% chance of ever finding your man.

15% of all men got a complex. 15% of all men don't practice safe sex. 20% of them grew up in homes without a father. That's a 50-50 chance that you'll marry a coward. That's something to think about when you taking a shower. That's something to swallow when you drink your bottled water.

I'll teach you how to expose the 90% and show you how to keep the other 10. Rule #1: Don't be a booty call. If he don't respect you, he will forget you. Rule #2: If he's in a relationship and he will cheat on her, that means he will cheat on you. Rule #3: Tell him that you're celibate. If he wants some of your goodies, he will have to work for it. Rule #4: Be the person you want to find. Don't be a nickel out there looking for dime.

These are the statistics...

Deo Volente,

Step Brown

Fear

This poem is heavily inspired by a song I know. But it's exactly how I feel.

Fear by Stephanie A. Brown

I'm scared to try cause I'm scared to fail
I'm scared to die guess I'm scared of hell
I'm scared to kiss cause I’m scared to hug
I'm scared of sex guess I'm scared to touch

I'm scared to look cause I'm scared to see
I'm scared of you guess I'm scared of me
I'm scared to fly cause I'm scared I’ll crash
I'm scared to move on guess I live in the past

I'm scared to fight cause I'm scared I’ll bleed
I'm scared of love guess I'm scared he'll leave
I'm scared to swim cause I'm scared to sink
I'm scared of drugs guess I'm scared to drink

I'm scared to learn cause I'm scared of truth
I’m scared to gain weight guess I'm scared of food
I'm scared to write cause I’m scared it’s good
I'm scared I’ll fail cause I know I could

I'm scared to start cause I'm scared I'll quit
I'm scared the people won't like my shyt
I'm scared of the fame and the paparazzi
The rumors starting and the people watching

Fear, the tormenting spirit keeps me
From fulfilling my God-given destiny
Unless I stand firm, break its hold
Stories God gave me will never be told


Inspired by Jazmine Sullivan’s Fear

Deo Volente,


Step Brown

"Empire State of Mind"

                                                I never really paid much attention to this song. But today, as I was thinking of my SMART goal and "My Bucket List With a Twist", this tune popped in my head and has been there all day. New York will be my next big city adventure. That is a promise to me. New York-where dreams come true. Where the streets make you feel brand new and the lights will inspire you. Let's hear it for New York...

My First SMART Goal

Today, I had a complimentary life coaching session with a real-live life coach. While at this point, I don't think I want to invest any money with a life coach, I do realize what the root of my problem is. I'm LAZY! Plain and simple. I need some discipline in my life. And I am making subtle changes.
While on the call, I made a SMART goal. A (S)pecific, (M)easurable, (A)ttainable, (R)ealistic, and (T)angible goal. It involves my writing.

Specific-to write everyday (except Sunday)
Measurable-write at 6am for one hour
Attainable-I am working on my next book.
Realistic-Writing is my passion.
Tangible-I will have the finished chapters in my hand.

So there you have it. I begin in the morning at six. Happy Writing...


Deo Volente,
Step Brown